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week seven

 So, this week was a rollercoaster. 

I’m supposed to be getting married in 3 weeks and endowed in exactly two weeks, but my roommate was just diagnosed with COVID and my fiancé is showing significant symptoms. Don’t worry, we are getting tested tomorrow. However, that leaves everything up in the air a little bit, and it’s a little bit terrifying. To top it all off, me and my fiancé have to quarantine away from each other, and we might not be able to have a reception at all, which is pretty wild. I never imagined not having a first dance at my wedding, you know? But it’s also been a good week! I got a lot of midterms done, and I read two whole books and I did get to hang out with my fiancé a lot before the whole COVID business!

So, this week has been a rollercoaster

Something that has always managed to help me calm down is music. Dr Coyne talked about this in her music lecture, but music is a major emotion regulator for me, I rely on it constantly. There is something peaceful about having background music when you are feeling so stressed. For me, music helps me to focus on the present instead of the constant anxiety I have about the future. This is horrible imagery, I’m so sorry I was definitely a weird kid lol, but when I was a kid I always thought that I would rather die than have my tongue cut out, because then how could I sing along to all the songs that I loved? Again, what a weird thought. But it shows how important music has always been.

As mentioned before, I have had a bit of a stressful week with unraveling my wedding plans and quarantining in my room. I decided today that I deserved to have a bit of a treat, so I turned on a random television show. I lost interest almost immediately and went straight back into my music. Passing time is easy with music, I’ve found. I’m very very grateful for music and how calming it can be. Media has a unique ability to calm everything, I think it’s really cool. 

Right now I am especially loving Lana Del Rey's most recent album, which is called Norman Rockwell. It's a little bit nostalgic and sad, but I think it encapsulates fall really well.

Do you guys have a favorite song that you put on when you need to calm down?

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  1. Emily RunningOctober 24, 2020 at 9:33 PM

    Oh Mary, I'm so sorry that you're stressed! Keep going, and know that we're out here supporting you :) I think one of my favorite songs to calm me down is Bloom by the Paper Kites. I heard it a long time ago, but it's been on my favorite list for a long time. I hope things start looking up for you and that quarantine goes by quicker than you think :)

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  2. AshleyOctober 30, 2020 at 3:51 PM

    Dang COVID for messing with life plans!! I'm glad you were able to find some music to help regulate your emotions. I have a "feels" playlist for when I get in these moods (although it often makes me even more sad, which is sometimes what I want lol). It includes some Demi Lovato, LANY, Noah Cyrus, Halsey, and many others!

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  3. AbrielleTolmanOctober 31, 2020 at 7:51 PM

    Ugh I am so sorry that you have to deal with that. Covid is the absolute worst. However, I am very glad that you have found a way of de-stressing and calming down. That can be a hard thing to figure out. As mentioned above, LANY is my favorite band. I love all of their music and it definitely calms me down when I am stressed.

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